The torrential downpour might only hint at how I'm feeling today. When you go to turn your faucet on to mix a bottle of formula for your newborn, and no water comes out...your heart just sinks. What do you do? How do you feed her? So, you pile your two girls into your car and hit the pavement asking churches for help, because you couldn't pay your water bill.
I had to be off work because of the baby, so we only have half of the money that we would normally have. Which makes for a freaking harder time. I'm scared about rent and my car payment tomorrow. incredibly scared. But what can I do? nothing really. I'm not asking anyone for help, I mean I put myself into this situation, and I know that I have to be the one to get myself out of it..
we ended up going to the salvation army, and they got our water turned back on. This is just so rough. But, i can't help that I had a c-section, I can't help that my incredible daughter decided to be here.
I love her so much. I love them both, so incredibly much. And as soon as I can get my butt back to work things will get better. It's just hard to deal right now. And I freaking hate it. But it will get better soon...hopefully. BLAH.