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The torrential downpour might only hint at how I'm feeling today. When you go to turn your faucet on to mix a bottle of formula for your newborn, and no water comes out...your heart just sinks. What do you do? How do you feed her? So, you pile your two girls into your car and hit the pavement asking churches for help, because you couldn't pay your water bill. I had to be off work because of the baby, so we only have half of the money that we would normally have. Which makes for a freaking harder time. I'm scared about rent and my car payment tomorrow. incredibly scared. But what can I do? nothing really. I'm not asking anyone for help, I mea

I hate it when I wake up and can't go back to sleep. Because then I've got so much on my brain that I can't stop thinking. So here I sit, feeling my daughter move inside my belly, wondering when the heck she's going to be here, and how much things are going to change once she is. Tomorrow, or Later today, I should say, I'm going in for a Bio-physical profile. They're going to be looking at as much of her as possible through ultrasound. I'm officially in the "high-risk" category, which means that I'm at a higher risk for something going wrong at this point. It's not my favorite thing to think about. So, now they have to watch my every move, ev

Wow does time fly. You don't realize how close you are until it's the very end. And the next thing you know there's a new baby in your arms. cooing and making her little noises. This pregnancy has been really hard. I know it's not easy and it's not supposed to be easy. But, this one really has torn me apart. Getting diabetes has changed a lot. Having to test my sugar 4 times a day, and paying as much attention as possible to everything that I eat has made things complicated. I now have an even better respect for people who are diabetic their entire lives. I know that If after I Have Rileigh, that if I don't continue to be careful with my foo